Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Queer You Go!


What should one make of this queer coming together of events:

A friend on facebook put forward this revelation:

Maysara:

i have this to put forward: i often feel jealous of 'queers', i think they belong to the future and that they simply possess something or experience something that i don't. not that i personally believe in sexual identity at all. i have freed myself from self-identification altogether. Yet i am always curious to experience or internalize about anything that is not yet incorporated with my repertoire of life experience, especially if it is something that i generally feel positive about. I used to decorate my face with eyeliners and eyeshadow makeup when i was young, around the time i was in high school and university. i both liked my appearance and the way i felt toward myself when i did this. i did not mind that this was challenging to my self-image as a man, perhaps because at the time i had no self-image at all and i had nothing to lose. also our ancient grandfathers used to do exactly the same thing and i was aware of that, i was actually proud that i was reviving a tradition that ancient men used to do. men in so many different cultures around the world decorate themselves and in some cases in Africa men do it more than women. Anyways i did not mind all of this and the whole thing felt natural to me to the extent that once i forgot all about it and unintentionally went down to the grocery shop, in Cairo, to buy some eggs while i had my eyes all rounded up in black, purple, and pink! I also wore a "Zannoba" flipflop that day which is generally considered to be a feminine thing to wear in the streets. they stared at me in shock at the grocery, and i laughed about it later! Just a funny story, which only make me wonder "why" did i stop beautifying my face the way i liked? the pressure in the streets definitely had something to do with it. Sometimes i wonder and say: perhaps if i had the freedom to keep doing it, and saw that others were equally free to do it in the society, i would have eventually developed sexually in directions other than those which led to my sexual experience and self-realisation thus far. While i am totally aware that self-beautification is not conditionally related to queerness, nor is it really contradictory with heterosexuality or manliness as i understand it in the first place, and although right now i have become 30 years old and think certain things can no longer be changed or reversed in my sexuality, with which i am also generally satisfied, especially that, although i am fearless, i have not the energy, nor any particular urge toward sexual exploration, yet in the end, the most realisation i have from this facebook status that has grown too large and might become a facebook note(!) is the conditional relationship between social freedoms, and the development of individual identity. And here, we're not just talking about, say, one's political orientation or opinions about one's own career or any of this bullshit, we're talking about the development of sexual identity or/and practice; something that grows permanently deep in one's body, mind, and soul. We all know that it is something that you cannot really develop entirely independently, but only in some social context and environment or another, yet it seems that while most adults eventually accept that their children should be allowed to choose for themselves what profession or career they wish to pursue, which is something that is entirely changeable in the future and all in all seems just bullshit to me, we are yet unable to consent and provide the same degree of freedom regarding the development of our children's very sexual identities, practices, and experiences. And then we wonder, why is it that on top of all the misery in which we live, we can't even have orgasms the way we read they should feel!! How the fuck have we become more decadent than other mammals? The answer is simple: mammals, all mammals except Humans, want their newborn to survive physically and be in good health, they don't care about how and who they will fuck later on when they grow up and whether they will be like their parents! This is always for the evolving self to decide, in total and complete freedom, without pressures, without references, without limitations, without any goal or purpose, other than the pure, deep, and self-propagating pleasure and happiness of the living organism. There, and only thereby, will you get your orgasm!!

Browsing through some other facebook entries I came upon these instances of switched-dresses 


Portraits of Men Wearing their Girlfriends' Clothes



And there is yet another link along the same lines...
Switcheroo



And then a bit later, yet another link pops up, and if you ever had the question, What Does Pin-up Photography Look Like With Male Models? you need not wonder any more.


































Maysara's account was the most touching to me personally because I felt the truth of his words. The other day I met a guy with painted toenails. I made immediate assumptions about his sexuality.

Only today did I also remember how I found nailpolish in a guy's apartment and was really surprised that he said it was his, rather than a girl friends'. Also I know that when his girlfriend left pajamas at his place he tried them on ;)


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