the good, the bad, and the ugly..

Dictionary.com has a strange way of catching up on my life.

Word of the Day for Tuesday August 16, 2005

numinous \NOO-min-uhs; NYOO-\, adjective:
1. Of or pertaining to a [1]numen; supernatural.
2. Indicating or suggesting the presence of a god; divine;
holy.
3. Inspiring awe and reverence; spiritual.

...one day after i quit my job and woke up to the email proffering a "perhaps" for a staff writer's position, for which I had my eye out, but wasn't getting anywhere.

And today we have:
dilatory \DIL-uh-tor-ee\, adjective:
1. Tending to put off what ought to be done at once; given to
procrastination.
2. Marked by procrastination or delay; intended to cause
delay; -- said of actions or measures.

which is completely true of what has happened to me today.. been putting it off till the 8th day of the week.

So many things have happened in so few days. This week I've quit from working with Dad, a job that was stressful, and suffocating and unproductive. I had a fallout with the brother, which is not too bad, things will come around - but I realise I am outsider to his life - and must be "as civil as strangers". I always wondered if that was a good lesson that my professor, Dr. Rodenbeck, gave to his children. "I expect you to be as polite to your family as you are to strangers".

I also said good-bye to someone, and will not try to talk to them again. I have never done that before - never been so decisive.

And then today I realise, once again, a magazine might have stolen my ideas.

And now I wish I had an anonymous blog, so that I could bitch and moan in public about matters of art and heart. But that's okay. I leave it your imagination. We all need to develop in that area, god knows i do :)

P.S. my sitemeter has recorded 0 hits for the past week. I know you're on summers and all, but hello? i'm good summer reading :)